one two three four
Count ’em. Four. Four follies growing big ripe juicy eggs. All in my right ovary. I saw them with my own eyes this morning. And I’m excited.
I don’t want quadruplets. I really don’t. I don’t even want triplets. I’d be okay with twins, but scared out of my mind. But the way I see it, four viable eggs means four times the chances that we’ll actually get pregnant this cycle. Dr. T put me on a double dose of Bravelle this cycle in the hopes that I’d get more than one, and lo and behold, he was right! It worked!
Today is only cycle day 6 and already those follies are looking pretty mature. They want me to do a few more days of double dose Bravelle and then I go back on Friday morning for an ultrasound. I was told to bring the trigger shot just in case – I find it hard to believe we’ll be doing it on day 9 but you never know!
Anyway it is amazing how optimistic you can feel when you really try. After last cycle’s failure (yes, failure…I know I shouldn’t couch it that way but I still do) I felt pretty much like someone had beaten the crap out of me. And stolen my wallet. And stomped on my heart. And threw my ice cream on the floor. But my RE helped me to get excited about the possibilities of this cycle. I love him for that.
In other news, my attempts to stay in the infertile closet have been thwarted somewhat. I had a very select few people (and of course the IF blog-and-twitterverse) that I had chosen to share this information with. But my brother stumbled upon my twitter account, which presumably led him to my blog, and now at least one of my siblings and his wife know at least generally about our struggle. I was really upset about it at first, but I’m okay with it now. I think so long as they respect that this is something we *intend* to keep private, even if I blew that a little bit, and they don’t ask me any questions or come back and read this blog then I’m okay.
(Was that subtle? Probably not. Please stop reading if you are reading. Thanks. Love you.)
Onward and upward! Grow, four follies, grow!